... you've got to recreate your misery...

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 12:07:59 GMT

100 "have you ever"s

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes?
ywa

2. Slept in a different bed?
yes

3. Made out in a movie theater?
yes

4. made out with 2 different people in one night?
i dont think in one night, no

5. Thought your cousin was hot?
no

6. Been in love?
maybe sometimes

7. Slept?
its my favorite

8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?
yes

9. Gone over the speed limit?
frequently

10. Painted your room?
haha yeah

11. Drove a car?
yes

12. Danced in front of your mirror?
always

13. Gotten a hickey?
yes

14. Been dumped?
i guess

15. Stole money from a friend?
never

16. Gotten in a car with people you just met?
probably

17. Been in a fist fight?
yeaah

18. Snuck out of your house?
no

19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
yeah

20. Been arrested?
nope

21. Made out with a stranger?
yeah

22. Left your house with out telling your parents?
yeah

23. Had a crush on your neighbor?
haha yeah

24. Ditched school to do something more fun?
yeah

25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same or opposite sex?
yeah

26. Seen someone die?
sort of ..

27. Been on a plane?
no

28. Kissed a picture?
no

29. Slept in until 3?
thats early

30. Love someone or miss someone right now?
yes

31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
oh yeah

32. Had sex with a snow angel?
i dont imagine that to be very fulfilling

33. Played dress up?
im a girl of course

34. Cheated while playing a game?
yeah

35. Been lonely?
yeah

37. Been to a club?
yeah

38. Felt an earthquake?
no

39. Touched a snake?
hell yeah

40. Ran a red light?
yeah

41. Been suspended from school?
no

42. Had detention?
yes

43. Been in a car accident?
yeah

44. Ever hated the way you look?
not really

45. Witnessed a crime?
sure

46. Been lost?
ugh yeah i hate it never super lost though

47. Been to the opposite side of the country?
no

48. Felt like dying from embarrassment?
yes

49. Cried yourself to sleep?
yeah

50. Sang karaoke?
no

51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
yes

52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose?
nno i dont understand that whole phenom

53. Caught a snowflake?
yeah

54. Kissed in the rain?
yes

55. Had a dream that you married someone?
no

56. Sung in the shower?
yeah

57. played getting married?
yeah

58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?
no

59. Ever gone to school partially nude?
ni

60. Been a hooker?
no

61. Sat on a roof top?
yeah

62. Not showered for a week?
no

63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?
yeah

64. played chicken?
no

65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
yeah and i almost drowned and two people had to jump in and help me .. then i puked all over my dad[ who waso ne of the two people]

66. What's your favorite color?
brown and blue

67. Broken a bone?
no

68.been easily amused?
always

69. Laugh so hard you cry?
yes

70. Cheated on a test?
yeah

71. Forgotten someone's name?
yeah

72. Blacked out from drinking?
yeah

73. Played a prank on someone?
yeah

74. Gone to a late night movie?
yeah

75. Someone take advantage of you while blacked out or heavely intoxicated?
no

76. Have you kissed someone of the same sex?no

77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat?
what does that mean?

78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours?
no

79. Cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend?
no

80. Did you celebrate the 4th of July?
but of course

81. Thrown strange objects?
yeah, usually at pat by accident

82. Was 81 a stupid question?
i guess all of these are

83. Thought about running away?
all the damn time

84. Ran away?
not consciously

85. Had detention and not attend it?
yes

86. made your parents cry
unfortunately yes

87. Cried over someone?
yes

88. Owned more than 5 sharpies?
yeah

89. Dated someone more than once?
yes

90. Have a dog?
yes

91. Own an instrument?
yes

92. Been in a band?
no

93. Drank 25 sodas in a day?
ew no

94. Broken a cd?
yeah

95. Shot a gun?
no

96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours?
its only natural

97. Been through puberty?
i am a woman

98. Know a different language?
si, hablo espanol

99. Have a religion?
onbce upon a time

100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral?
yeah

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 04:39:46 GMT

hm, life is pretty nuts.

ive recently decided that i am a completely unsorted mess. im in the process of filing but honestly,im scared of what its going to be like if i cant get through the mess.

i am moving again sometime this week. marwa, kelli, and i are renting a three bedroom house in manalapan. its on a xmas tree farm. and theres real animals ... goats and sheep ... hah theyre random and cute. the house itself is really old and i think we should have been more assertive about a few things being put together before we move in. i think the bathroom is my favortie part of the house ... it has a really old, footed bathtub ... and the way i see it being decorated oozes romance. its going to be awesome. im really, really excited about it. i just dont feel like actually moving. its the most annoying thing to do. ugh. its got to be done though. .. crazy housewarming party tba.

i worked carside tonight.

thats all i have to say about that.

decided martin is a complete moron.

realized i apparently make facial expressions that completely contradict what im actually thinking. im pretty sure it scares me that marwa and kelli really pick me apart the same way i pick people apart. nobody really ever tells me their conclusions about me. its really, really interesting to hear ... a mindfuck at the same time though.

blegh ... steve is leaving to go to milltown. really, really sucks. theres things about that man i love and things i hate. im happy hes leaving though because our store is complete bullshit. i hope our new manager doesnt suck.

ugh i need to talk to martin and tell him everythignt hats been building up .. honestly, its going to feel really good because hes been the source of a lot of my stress ... unnecessary stress ... lately. it will be nice not to have to worry about it anymore. im just so unsure of what i should do. oh well.

thats all for now.

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 17:18:28 GMT

so im on my third day of no applebees ... three days off is the most ive had in a looong time. its ok though .. it went fast but im glad i had the time. corneal abrasions are no joke.

im pretty bored right now ...update on life. i moved out ofmy parents house ... got two roomates ... goodtimes ... still work at applebees ... going back to school next semester ... thats about it ... oh i got an ipod too.

thats about it. not very interesting. sorry.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 07:21:12 GMT

wow, its certainly been a long time

i guess you can say ive traveled a rough road the past few months

but fortunately it doesnt seem to be very long.

im tired, but i thought it best to let my wide livejournal auidence know im still alive .. or something.

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 07:54:00 GMT

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? my face and hair

2. How much cash do you have on you?
At this moment? the neighborhood of five hundred or so

3. What's a word that rhymes with test? best

4. Favorite plant? i never really thought about, i guess earth has the most to offer

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? marwa

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone? get low by the ying yang twins

7. What color shirt are you wearing? black [ john is 86ed ]

8. Do you "label" yourself? human

9. Name brand of your shoes currently wearing. i dont do shoes unless i have to, and right now i dont.

10. Bright or Dark Room? depends on what mood im in

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? that he was wearing a yellow shirt when he took it

12. Ever "spilled the beans"? probably

13. What were you doing at midnight last night? i was really, really messed up last night

14. What did your last text message you recieved on your cell phone say? (RE:) yeah no prob

15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners? i can barely remember what im doing when i switch screens for a second, pop ups are out of the question

16. What's a saying that you say a lot?

17. Who told you they loved you last? meh, my stupid dad on a stupid voicemail that never should have happened

18. Last furry thing you touched? my sisters cat

19. How many hours a week do you work? at least 30

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? im all caught up

21. Favorite age you have been so far? im not for sure

22. Your worst enemy? i dont have enemies persay .. but theres a few people i generally dislike a lot .. kaitlin wright ( yep, apparently im still not over it ) stupid jackie from work .. melissa guiffre rubs me the absolute wrong way .. thats all the came off the top of my head

23. What is your current desktop picture? omg christian bale naked in a tanning bed with his arms behind his head from american psycho

24. What was the last thing you said to someone? "not yet hang on a min"

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to go back in time to fix all of your mistakes, which would you pick? for a million bucks i could buy my own island and make it illegal to think about all the mistakes ive made

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 06:59:10 GMT

During senior year:

1. What high school did you go to?
boro
2. What year did you graduate?
2003

3. What were your favorite band(s) or artist(s):
the starting line something corporate bush silverchair

4. What was your favorite outfit?
jeans and my red flannel or my track jacket

5. What was up with your hair? it was pretty short in the beginning and really long for me at the end

6. Who were your best friend(s)? pat lauren katie sean chris danielle jess

7. What did you do after school? mostly sleep or pats house for doritos in the basement, a few clubs here and there

8. Where did you work? kb toys

9. Did you take the bus? unfortunately

10. Who did you have a crush on? seth lefburg in the beginning and a little bit on striff in the middle .. i dont really think anyone stood out too much though

12. Did you fight with your parents?
id say so

13. Did you ever get detention? hah

14. Favorite Subject?
it certainly wasnt as psych with streiter ... probably drama

16. Who did you have a CELEBRITY crush on?
no idea .. davey havok?

17. Did you smoke cigarettes?
no

18. Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack all day?
negative ... i would try and haul ass to my locker to get it in time

19. Best event ever? steve weiss

20. Did you have a clique? yeah, but i had a lot of friends outside of it

21. Where was your Senior Prom at? ocean place in long branch

22. Did you have a "Max" (hangout): not exclusively

23. Admit it, were you popular? no

24. Who did you want to be just like? danielle frank

25. What did you want to be when you grew up?
a big psychologist in my own office

26. Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now?
college

27. What was the color of your yearbook?
cant remember right now

28. What were the colors of your school?
blue and gold, real nice i had to wear a yellow graduation robe

29. What was your school mascot?
colonial

30. Hottest teacher was..
i cant think of any

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 06:55:30 GMT

During senior year:

1. What high school did you go to?
boro
2. What year did you graduate?
2003

3. What were your favorite band(s) or artist(s):
the starting line something corporate bush silverchair

4. What was your favorite outfit?
jeans and my red flannel or my track jacket

5. What was up with your hair? it was pretty short in the beginning and really long for me at the end

6. Who were your best friend(s)? pat lauren katie sean chris danielle

7. What did you do after school? mostly sleep or pats house for doritos in the basement, a few clubs here and there

8. Where did you work? kb toys

9. Did you take the bus? unfortunately

10. Who did you have a crush on? seth lefburg in the beginning and a little bit on striff in the middle .. i dont really think anyone stood out too much though

12. Did you fight with your parents?
id say so

13. Did you ever get detention? hah

14. Favorite Subject?
it certainly wasnt as psych with streiter ... probably drama

16. Who did you have a CELEBRITY crush on?
no idea .. davey havok?

17. Did you smoke cigarettes?
no

18. Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack all day?
negative ... i would try and haul ass to my locker to get it in time

19. Best event ever? steve weiss

20. Did you have a clique? yeah, but i had a lot of friends outside of it

21. Where was your Senior Prom at? ocean place in long branch

22. Did you have a "Max" (hangout): not exclusively

23. Admit it, were you popular? no

24. Who did you want to be just like? danielle frank

25. What did you want to be when you grew up?
a big psychologist in my own office

26. Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now?
college

27. What was the color of your yearbook?
cant remember right now

28. What were the colors of your school?
blue and gold, real nice i had to wear a yellow graduation robe

29. What was your school mascot?
colonial

30. Hottest teacher was..
i cant think of any

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 23:19:48 GMT

i was a complete absolute waste today.

:/

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 23:38:46 GMT

today was my first day off in a week and i woke up a little while ago...
i guess ill do laundry and get my haircut tomorrow.

this summer is def the most "all-time" load of bullshit ive been through in a while.

i am finito.

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 07:02:12 GMT

todays forecast: grouchy ... borderline miserable.

fuck off ... each and every one ... fuck off.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 01:46:42 GMT

im grouchy, im bored, and all i want is to go see batman again. the end.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 03:42:52 GMT

i guess i dont really have much to write about.

i am really bored. i dont like being by myself when im in the mood to be social. like now.

i think i may be in a bit of a sassy mood.

i guess that happens.

shyfas play with me

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 04:25:34 GMT

i speak in groups of two

batman begins

christian bale

diet pepsi

bacardi o

drunk val

tour guide

sephora <3

in closing:

i <3 ny

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 01:31:43 GMT

uh, another update

i had a crazy dream last night. by crazy, i mean really crazy .. i got embarassed talking about it today ... dreams are the weirdest things to me. its like the places in my dreams really exist and i go back to them sometimes. its weird. i like it though. ha that and the comcast triple threat....

yeah .. i went to the city not long ago the eric and steven lee and bought the mind eraser .. aka our new bubbler ... cutest thing ever.

i also made the first summertime type venture to the beach yesterdya with pat my sis and my niece ... i fell asleep and got real burnt ... pat too ... hurts like a bitch.

ugh, im sleepy. no reason. i was supposed to work tonight, but they never added me on so i didnt have to work. i probably should have because i have no concept of how to save money.

ahh man that was the most boring post ever.

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 14:39:18 GMT

Its been a while since any kind of update. Theres been a lot going on for me, and unfortunately a lot of it has been shitty. some of it hasnt been though so thats good.

marwa is gone for a month =/
not happy for me ... SO happy for her

im cranky and tired and pmsing. ive decided i need to be medicated for pms ... i dont know many people who pms as miserably as i do. its not very fun.

i finally tasted a little bit of that tunderstorm weather i was craving.

new craving: a cold, finished air conditioned basement, disney movies, a blanket, and sleep. get back to me on that ..

im going back to sleep ... i need to go someplace where its normal to sleep during the day

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 08:14:56 GMT

1. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandmother's/father's first name + favorite snack): charlie chips
2. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant): amanda checkers
3. YOUR SOCIALITE NAME: (silliest childhood nickname + first town where you partied): goober howell
4. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial + first three letters of your last name): a. joh
5. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite animal + name of high school): pig boro
6. YOUR BARFLY NAME: (last snack food you ate + your favorite drink): pizza code red mountain dew
7. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name + street where you first lived): park ave.
8. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (favorite candy + favorite musicians last name): big kit kat kasher
9. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME: (name of [opposite sex] friend + cell phone company you use): pat t. mobile
10. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: ( first 3 letters of your last name+ last 3 letters of mothers middle name /+/ first 3 letters of your pets name + first 3 letters of the town you live in): joh lexfre [sounds french]

i think my life inside my head may have spun out of control. i think im everything i always wanted to be and im not sure how i like it. i know i like pat ... he makes sense to me .. even right now ... especially since as i typed that he became un-idle ... and making sense to me right now is tough.

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 04:43:41 GMT

it def thundered today.

im so excited about that.

i keep having this dream about brad pitt .. not a hot man sexy one .. he has a seizure and dies in this house turned into a hotel that i lived in/ was staying at... its creepy and i dont like dreaming about it more than once.

i think i fucked up my sleeping patterns ... it seems i only sleep really well the day after a night when i dont sleep at all. not fun.

i make my return to the bees tomorrow, and truth be told im pretty excited.

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 00:22:07 GMT

hi, im bored. life is ok again ... i guess i was just freaking out, but rightly so. everything will work out.

marwa is in florida and i miss her. lots.

ive been really bored of late.

i bought blank tapes and one day when im not lazy im going to make awesome mix tapes. one day, ill get balls and make one for the one person who might really appreciate it. i dont see that happening in the coming days though.

i decided i dont really do easter.

i also decided i love catching up with people from a long time ago. especially when they use the same phrases as me.

come make me not bored.

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 19:43:59 GMT

it goes without saying my life has pretty much gone to shit ... some of its my fault and some of it isnt ... regardless ... all of it sucks ... i think im going to brooklyn or philly for a week or so.

i feel like leaving and thats really how al the probems in my life started to begin with. awesome.

ugh.

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 08:09:25 GMT

for working and coming home and sitting on my computer ... i had a pretty fulfilling night. thank god.

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 08:03:06 GMT

tonight was the craziest night ive had in a long damn time

and i love how its the simpliest nights and the easiest things that send my brain into a whirlwind.

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 06:59:05 GMT

Error: You must be someone's friend to make comments about them.

at least myspace has principles

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 21:13:33 GMT

so i have pneumonia and thats not fun

neither is having to take 1/2 of the only money i have to fix my car ... for a prescription.

thank you illness.

on the bright side i dont have to work until thursday. i was off yesterday and i called out today ... thats a long time without applebees.

im not sure how much im going to enjoy that much time stuck in the house ... please send me any interesting links you may have. call me

break up the monotony.

sick and bored

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 01:10:00 GMT

*LOVE, SEX AND ROMANCE QUIZ*
Name:	amanda
Birthdate:	august 14
Hair:	brown
Eyes:	brown and little
Height:	5'6
Gender:	im a lady
How many true relationships have you had?:	none that matter to me now
Have you ever been in love?:	yes
What's your idea of a perfect date?:	the art museum in philly during the summer
Where's your favorite place to be kissed?:	my neck is pretty receptive
How many sexual partners have you had?:	zero
How many people have you kissed?:	i think 9
Do you like to make the first move?:	i will
Are you a snuggler?:	like you have no idea
Do you kiss on the first date?:	yeah
Where is the best place you've ever hooked up?:	a dark laundry room
Do you consider yourself to be romantic?:	i can be
Are you an angel or a devil in the sack?:	humph
Would you ever pay someone for sex?:	no
Would you ever let someone pay YOU for sex?:	no
Do you keep your eyes open when you kiss?:	no
What was your most embarrassing sexual moment?:	probably at pac sun in the monmouth mall
Have your parents ever caught you in a compromising position?:	no
Have you ever performed a striptease?:	no
How about a lapdance?:	no
Have you ever received a lapdance?:	no
Do you like sexual contact?:	a lot
Are you straight, gay or bi?:	straight
Have you ever made out with a member of the opposite sex?:	no
Are you a giver or a taker?:	both
What do you look for in a girlfriend/boyfriend?:	....
Do you think you've met the person you'll spend the rest of your life with?:	not yet
Do you know who your bridesmaids and groomsmen would be?:	sorta
Have you ever regretted a hook-up?:	yes
Have you ever cheated on a significant other?:	no
Have you ever hooked-up with someone already in a relationship?:	yes
Have you ever cried over a member of the opposite sex?:	yes
Have you ever had your heart broken?:	yes
Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?:	hell no
Would you date or marry someone if your parents didn't accept them?:	depends on their reason for not accepting them
How about if your friends didn't accept them?:	depends
What's the worst relationship you ever had?:	uh probably damien or rooney
Have you ever done anything sexual while on the road?:	hah yeah
Would you kiss someone if you didn't love them?:	yeah
Who told you all about sex?:	im not sure
Are you always horny?:	pretty much
Are you a flirt?:	yeah
Are you a tease?:	sometimes
Do you prefer to chase or BE chased?:	to chase
Do you prefer morning or evening hook-ups?:	evening or really early, just woke up morning
Have you ever pulled an all-nighter with a member of the opposite sex, and woke up in each others arms?:	yeah
How old were you at the age of your first kiss?:	summer before junior year
How old were you when you lost your virginity?:	pending ..
Do you sometimes wish you could change that?:	no
Do you enjoy being in a relationship?:	sometimes
Are you currently in one?:	no
Have anyone ever fallen in love with you?:	yes
Have you ever said "I Love You" and not meant it?:	no
Are you "noisy" when you get heated?:	heated .. like angry? ... sometimes .. heated like turned on? .. no
What is your kissing pet peeve?:	too much too soon
Do you think you're a good kisser?:	yeah
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 19:07:52 GMT

so its snowing again and i guess that means i should be grateful that the weekend weather was good. cold, but good ... i decided to leave my jacket in the car and traipse a few blocks in the city with a tube top on. that = cold, but i guess being drunk warmed me up because i just stopped feeling my body after a bit.

saturday night was a blast, after a little bit of drama we were finally on our way ... everyone looked super hot ... we got to the club drank and danced and put up with more bullshit drama, that as far as i know is still going on ... im just really glad i wasnt that girl that no one wanted to help or talk to.

i wish i had felt better for the whole outing, but even though i wasnt 100% i still had a blast .. and that says a lot. i feel like i took care of myself well [save the whole jacket thing]. it was a lot of fun but i dont think it would have been as fun if we didnt have the room. i think i DIED laughing the entire time we were there. people crack me the hell up. people like val who randomly speaks different languages to prove her point.

much love ... i think everyone had a pretty good time

i missed someone ... and thats awesome